I was able to overcome or live with the others. I was just a kid, though this was around or , and the thing that's incredibly stupid is that I really liked her.
I found some old letters from my fellow campers, in which scolded me for ruining the poor girl's entire summer.
All these years later, I still can't forgive myself. I've Googled her name a few times over the years, but never found her I'd have a year pension by now or a ton in the bank had I stuck it out either place. I turned it down because my SO hated them and spent the whole weekend before I was supposed to start railing against big corporations.
Staying with my SO during years of alcoholism, fearing a breakup of the family, figuring I could manage it, and trying to maintain their dignity when they had none. I hate that even today, women so often aren't allowed to advocate for themselves in opting for child-free lives.
Of course, once a woman has a child, they'll most often say, 'I'm so glad my doctor didn't let me choose that,' because we're not monsters and can fully love, adore, and raise children that we didn't want in the first place. But that doesn't mean that our lives would've been any less happy had we gotten what we asked for and didn't have kids. Letting anxiety take over, needed to just chill out and not make an already difficult situation worse.
