But, the time I spent in Paris before he had arrived was perfect, and I could have carried on being there on my own. I realized how much good it did me. I felt I could no longer be wholly in the relationships in my life. This is where I felt I needed to be whole — on my own.
For me, going on vacation on my own has its own, special quality. I walked around the streets, I took the Metro, I just went with the flow - with myself. I was pregnant. I ate when I wanted. I slept when I wanted. I went out exploring when I wanted. Like sitting in a restaurant on your own? Not for one moment did I think about what other people might be thinking about me. I was a little afraid of being bored on my own, but I soon discovered that not to be the case at all.
It might not be a nice thing to say, but it was great. Being alone is the foundation for creating intimacy with yourself. I understood how important it is for me to be on my own on a vacation like this.
A notebook and pen can also make you feel less alone. Make a general schedule of things you plan to do, leaving room for free time. Keep away from your phone as much as you can and be with yourself. I felt I needed to get away. It was now or never.
I felt that the time alone would give me time reflect on life from a different perspective. From there she continued to Thailand where she spent a month. Volunteering allowed her to be alone, but still within an organizational structure. I travelled a little with some of the other volunteers, who were mostly very young. One day, I took a guide to take me to see sunrise at Mt. Traveling alone is different. That spoke to me. We need be at peace with ourselves. Only then can we be at peace with our surroundings.
